You know how sometimes when people ask " how are you " and you automatically respond with a " I'm good thanks". But you actually aren't at all...
LOL. That's how I feel about Christmas. And although it is pretty much my favourite time of year. I love the decorating, the smells, the baking, the shopping... ALL of it.
Honestly, for almost as long as I can remember. It just hasn't been a good time for me. I think when you grow up with parent's that have divorced... Things are REALLY difficult at Christmas time.
You never really get to settle into a situation on Christmas day, because you are either 1. being taken from a situation, cause you have to rush to your 'other' side of the family. Or. 2. You are having Christmas with ' mom ' this year, or Christmas with ' dad ' this year.
Thankfully, over the year's I have had people to step up to the plate and contribute to my Christmas "experience" over the years.
If any of you have come from single family homes, or are a single parent yourself. You will know... Sometimes it's hard for your parent's to survive and provide for you off of one income. That sometimes your Christmas gifts from your parents are more on the practical sides, more than being something that you really "wanted" for Christmas.
Luckily some of our aunts and uncles really looked out for us, and we didn't really feel like we were lacking, or didn't get the things our little hearts desired at Christmas time.
Currently... I'll be honest the Christmas season is a hard one for me. And to be honest, i've actually ended up working alot of the last Christmas days... Or volunteering, because it kind of distracts away from the discomfort of the day.
When you don't really have anywhere to go for the day... You kinda just feel like you're imposing on other people's Christmas festivities.
And again, I have be SUPER lucky to have people that have welcomed me into their home during the holidays... But haha you often can't get away from feeling a bit like an orphan imposing on other people's traditions.
If you struggle through the holiday season... how do you cope through it ? Do you volunteer ? Do you go on vacation ? Buy yourself everything ? lol
I'd love to know!